It just not easy
To believe and to be believable… who would believe me? because I’m just an ordinary man.. who knows what inside my thoughts and my heart?
hmm… sometimes.. i just thoughts.. how to make other people believe me? how to make the most precious person for me –that far away, so far apart from me and to have meet each other is a rare thing for us– can believe in me? cos, the only things I have is just words… but every that “sometimes” cames, i only have one answer ..just let the time prove it..
but… it just not easy…
another thoughts just came.. my past.. hmmm… could it be one of the reasons that could make someone can not believe me? yes, i guess so… even when i’ve said that it all over now, or it just the past for me, but may be it just not that simple for others to understand.. i don’t know how to explain it, but… yeah it’s all over, it just my past..
and it just make me hate my self sometime… why should i get those past? why didn’t people just forget about it? and… look everyone, this is me.. don’t stare at my back, there’s nothing left there!
ahhh… it just not easy…
when someone ask me.. why you pick her as… hmmm.. her?
and, I never know how to answer it..
at one night, that has left not too long ago, i have this conversation with one of my best friend… he asked me ..what will you answer if she ask you why you choose her?..
even it only in front of my best friend that time… i didn’t have the answer.. when i feel that i want to choose her, that’s the only reason that i have to fight..
yes, again… it just not easy…
and now…
even it all said that “it just not easy”… it will not be a reason for me to give up… I have to fight, and i will fight.. and for the reason to have her smile and see her laughing with me, i will not give up…
ahhh… can you believe me? i don’t know…
hmm.. yes i know that… it just not easy..
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Tanggapan dari hendra
melayang pada 17 Mei 2007 pukul 1235
belajar bahasa inggris….hehehe ajarin daku bro ;)
Tanggapan dari mira
melayang pada 20 Mei 2007 pukul 156
hmm….for the someone u’ll fight for, how lucky u are!! ayoo erik , i believe you!!!
Tanggapan dari erik
melayang pada 21 Mei 2007 pukul 726
_hendra : yuk.. ikutan atuh tiap ada bahasan pake english… meh aya nu nyangkut.. kumaha yeuh, damang bRO?
_mira : no, mir.. i guess i’m the lucky one, coz i have someone to fight again now…
Tanggapan dari mira ajaah
melayang pada 21 Mei 2007 pukul 913
heu heu, good , glad to hear that rik