How would you feel when you couldn’t see your future while your eyes were blind to see what happened today, but your past keep coming back again and never have the will to stay put, there, just stay in the past?
That kind of story keep repeating in my life. Every time, the same old shit.
I wonder, is it bad when you always tried to do the right thing even if not all the people said the same thing about right or wrong, to trust your feeling even if the reality might turns out differently, to believe that you could get what you want when you try your best achieving it, and is it wrong if you ignoring the big question marks in your mind which you already know that it could make you down and it will be hard to go up and stand again?
Well, the finger still pointing at me when I tried to do the right things, the reality still turns out different, I couldn’t get what I tried to achieved, the questions still came and made me down.
So…. does it means it’s bad and I was wrong?
I will not change, I wont.
Even if everyone said that what I tried was bad and it was all wrong, I will still be the same old shit.
I love being here, present time, even if I’m blinded. Stuck.
but… no one seems to see the same way as I do.
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December 1st, 2008 at 947
damang bro?
December 1st, 2008 at 1001
hendra : alhamdulillah, bRO…. insya Allah sae….
ngan tiba-tiba we ngarasa kitu. Tapi lamun ayeuna mah alhamdulillah tos aya peningkatan.
ihh.. naon sih? wakakakak….
December 3rd, 2008 at 841
oohhh yang ini yaaaa?!! hahahaaa baru baca lagi nih blog..
p kbr pmn?ini isinya tentang apa c? *ehm* tp alhamdulillah klw ada peningkatan…
December 3rd, 2008 at 1653
MOMOSey O_O : yups.. yang ini… mmm… yang ini yang mana maksudnya?
alhamdulillah, paman baik…. isinya ya… begitulah. cuma tiba-tiba merasa seperti itu dan udah lama juga ga main langsung nulis aja setiap perasaan yang lewat…
alhamdulillah banyak hal yang mulai terlihat jadi lebih baik….
December 11th, 2008 at 959
just be your self lah ya bro?
December 11th, 2008 at 1141
hendra: ya… selalu mencoba jadi diri sendiri kok. walo orang bilang salah, gw teteplah gw..
December 13th, 2008 at 1620
yup sip bro
December 15th, 2008 at 1355
hendra: semoga selalu bisa yak… amiinn..
December 15th, 2008 at 1941
yeah.. many shits all around the world.. keep on your move man.. don’t let them change you, except that you want it inside. coz, they won’t responsible for us, just ourselves. the case is, maybe you and anyone with same experiences should start to find the truth, so others judgments will less important.
December 22nd, 2008 at 1502
anonymous: thanks, bRO.. or sista???
like it or not.. this is me… I won’t change anything unless I really want it…